i die a little
what a fucking week. what a fucked up week. what a busy fucking, fucked up week. is this my punishment for eating drugs and enjoying myself? does my place of employment know that i enjoy fucking myself? do they realize that my sadomasochism touches me? i just want something beautiful.
i don't know. i got a hookah yesterday. smoked some herbs and "herbal blends" out of it and spaced pretty well out into the outer realms of time. it's fairly cheap and made of glass/metal .. but i didn't intend on getting something that would last me forever. i just want to learn what this ancient form of smoking is all about and see if i like it before i invest $300 in a proper device.
i've been playing a lot of world of warcraft with my limited free time. i stopped playing for a couple months after my account got deleted for giving my password to koreans. i started the same type of character again and at this time he's level 28. i'm slowing making my way back even though it's slow and stupid. but it keeps me busy and not thinking about anything else.
eric and i went down the old canal yesterday with the hookah and laid on some rocks near a waterfall and toked for an hour or so. after that, went to another friend's place and smoked with him. we all enjoy the hookah but i need to learn how to use it more efficiently. this was all necessary after my work week. for the record.
jenny called my phone a few times yesterday. i haven't talked to her since i was walking in downtown chicago but even then it was only for a few minutes and i didn't really want to talk to her while i was geek'd and going to a party. i tried calling her back after the first missed call but got no answer and i didn't pick up for the rest of the day. i really want to completely ignore her but i don't think i can. i really don't want to ignore her but i am. i guess i just need some time to think. i don't even know why i'm talking about this as it's totally pointless.