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October 31, 2006

halloween

today sucks. i am definitely down from this last weekend's excessive partying, and it is taking its toll on my brain. my body actually feels better today.. my tongue isn't sore anymore and the bodyaches have gone away. but my mind hurts much much more. i'm sure, due to the lack of seratonin. i've been taking 5htp religiously since sunday, but i can't really tell if it's making any kind of difference. stupid brain and its stupid slow regeneration of neurotransmitters.

of course, i have 2 exams next week .. one in finance and the other in emerging technologies. the ET one will just be an annoyance, as the prof likes to make the exam questions based strictly from the book. yeah.. no logic here.. just memorization of syntax and stupid shit. god. and the finance exam i'll probably fail.. and if i do, i will definitely fail the class, which i don't want to do cause i've never failed a class yet in college.

i am super depressed. yeah.. i know it's just the post-e crash, but i feel like i'm at an all time low because i have nothing.. and i mean absolutely nothing to look forward to. i guess thanksgiving weekend.. dank food and relaxing time to play vgames. speaking of which, i picked up final fantasy xii last night at midnight cause i had a preorder. when i showed up at eb, there was surprisingly a line outside the store, because they were only letting about 7-8 people in at a time. those were some nerdy ass kids (myself included).. one guy was dressed like a gangster (matching track suit and bling diamond stud earrings that were clearly fake) had a psp on a chain around his neck playing lil jon music videos. and there were many token white nerd kids. and 2 females.. one of which was buying the game for herself, and the other was there with her asian boyfriend. oddly enough, i was the only person that purchased a regular version of the game.. and not the collector's edition. i just feel that a metal case and a behind the scenes featurette isn't worth an extra $10. oh.. and i put down some cash for a preorder of gears of war. mmm.

i started playing ffxii earlier today. for a ps2 game, goddamn, it looks beautiful. i hooked my ps2 up to my lcd hdtv, and enabled widescreen (16:9) in the game menu. stunning. the only thing is that it is somewhat blurry.. probably due to the fact that my ps2 is hooked up via standard rca. i was thinking about getting a component cable for it, but decided against it since my hdtv only has 1 component connection and it's already being used by my xbox 360. fuck it.. i'll just play ffxii on ps3 (hdmi) eventually.. someday.

October 29, 2006

good times for a price.

today my brain feels like a mashed potato and swiss cheese casserole. yeah.. disgusting.

but i had a really good time last night. foo out.

October 24, 2006

why bother?

i guess i haven't updated in a while because, well, there really hasn't been shit to update about. i've been pretty much just living the same old grind. i've been doing really slackerishly (i know.. that isn't a real word) in school. i dunno, i think it's because of my general apathetic attitude towards life lately. i have very few motivators. i hope i can save my finance grade before the semester ends.

besides the usual grumbling, the only thing i'm doing coming up is kickback to the future iii, a halloween rave. i really shouldn't be going, and i know that i really don't deserve to go either. but i'm gonna anyway. where is the sounding of the gard?

October 12, 2006

little d...

.. is out of prison. i just talked to him for the first time since may. he was released earlier today. he told me he's gonna stay clean from drugs and he's now in the best shape he's ever been in his life. happy fucking day.

October 03, 2006

5-meo-dmt

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i can't even talk about it right now.

October 02, 2006

only a minute

looks like i have a couple minutes to chill before i make the long walk to my truck only to be followed by the extremely long drive to work.

i guess i officially work at the shop now. i'm glad but at the same time i'm not thrilled with the way he does things. i should probably compile a list and suggest changes. if i cared i would so do that. the neutrality in my words is somewhat strengthened by a possibility to go back to my old stomping ground for employment. everything about that rocks except for one fatal flaw ... the guy who originally replaced me. i can already tell i wouldn't get along with him. i had to spend two weeks training him -- conclusion: he's a little kid. talks big game but ends up getting fucked in the end. and by end i mean assums. anyway, who knows. i don't even know when this position would be available -- i'm guessing this year but i don't even know that much.

October 01, 2006

photos

in an attempt to bring more content to this unfortified journal i went hunting for a way to post pictures. "simpleviewer" by airtight interactive is a flash-based thumbnail viewer that generates automatically from google's picasa2 albums. i have two examples loaded right now: 1. lookout mountain, tennessee :: taken by myself and my friend eric while we made a detour near chattanooga on our way home from baltimore earlier this year. 2. master's 2006 :: taken by my mother while she was at the augusta nationals.

it's simple .. and dull. i need to work on it -- though i doubt i'll stay with this specific photo viewer. i want something more expansive.

catnip

i'm sorry to interrupt your busy day with this bit of seemingly unnecessary information ...

catnip .. is like k .. for cats ..

it lasts a short time and seems to be really euphoric though perhaps not as dissociative as a k-hole but they're little creatures. i imagine there's only so much their tiny brains can take. i will be giving my kittens more catnip. i will be eating more k (haha.. i fucking wish) and everything will be a-okay in this crazy, topsy-turvy world.

i love you, reader. you're the only one i can say that to. <3 hug <3