well well well
today was a mostly productive day at work. i actually didn't sit on my ass until almost 4 o'clock.
i've been listening to some porcupine tree lately.. they are progressive rock.. i would say the music sounds like a combination between pink floyd and tool, and the singer sounds kinda like floyd meets radiohead. it's good shit. i've only listened to their album called in absentia so far though.
today i feel a lot better than i did for most of this week. i dunno why. this week was totally a huge depressive slump. i felt very isolated and alone. not really lonely.. just alone. i guess i'm been kinda introspective and contemplating my life a lot. whoever first said that life is what you make of it couldn't be more right. sure, it's basically stating the obvious, but i think a lot fewer people actually think about what the statement entails. i guess i just need to get over my motivational problems and get off my ass and succeed. cause the way i'm living life right now, i'm not succeeding at all. in fact, i am very close to failing. it's just not that easy to pick up and change your life one day though. i need some sort of cataylst in order to do that. maybe i just haven't found out what that is yet.
well, i think i'm gonna just chill for tonight and try to get up at a decent hour tomorrow so i can get a good chunk of my paper done.. perhaps even finish it so i can edit it on sunday. yeah.