fuck
my ears feel plugged and i'm weezing like a ninety year old smoker. not to mention there are way too many fluids evacuating my head. i'm coughing so much it makes my throat sore and i'm blowing my nose so much it's bleeding.
this is really fuckin shitty and i hate it. i've quit smoking cigarettes, though. no longer will i pollute my asthmatic lungs with tar and nicotine. however, i can't wait until i can light up some pot. my life becomes unstable when i'm not high. many realizations start to flicker with excitement trying to get me to pay attention .. bullshit like: get a job! .. stop jerking off! .. what about your future, asshole?! .. things like that i can do without. i don't want to care about where i'll be tomorrow let alone years from now.
aside from all that .. a girl came to visit me today. we went to high school together but didn't know each other. i started talking to her on myspace recently which led to instant messaging and in turn was followed by physical contact. we were going to watch a movie but ended up just talking for hours. she's a cool chick but i don't think i could keep a stable relationship with her. she's christian, doesn't smoke pot and doesn't like sushi. who knows, though .. strange things seem to happen to me.