a bright fucking horizon
so yea .. she's gone. not completely though. i have to erase anything i thought was true or real or whatever and just substitute it with this brand new verisimilitude. i looked that up. doesn't sound too hard. i bet i fail at it, though.
on the other side of the tracks, i got a message from a friend who i used to work with. told me about a support position that's open downtown with ipswitch. the salary is more than i would even ask for but so are the prerequisites. i have some catching up to do on tcp/ip, dns, smtp (and whatever other acronym related to email i can think of) .. .. but other than that it would be a great thing right now. also, a member of his family started the company ..
i just spent the last few hours .. or six laying on the couch in the porch .. listening to the wind chime and the birds .. people moving in and out of their cars and mowing their lawns. i just can't shake this sinking feeling. something's wrong in my perfect little world ..