MonkeyPhish

i suppose i haven't been updating too much lately cause i don't have much to say and there isn't a lot going on in my life. charles has been making an excellent effort on making regular and lengthy updates, so i guess i'll try to do the same. i really do like monkeyphish, so i should use it more.

last weekend was pretty fun.. i partied hard on saturday (hence the seratonin deficiency update) and felt fallout from it on monday. this week has been normal faire so far.. the only thing i've done that has been even close to productive is making up my smmer and fall schedules. for summer i'm taking business administration 311 - quality and productivity improvement. yes, this is the course i dropped this semester. mindfucking statistics and other garbage that makes my brain scream in agony. i think i'm gonna quit my use of all recreational substances (not even in moderation) the week after my bday until the summer school session is over. i really need to pass this class with a decent grade. for fall, here's what i'm looking at:

bus adm 202 - managerial accounting
bus adm 350 - principles of finance
bus adm 370 - production and operations management
bus adm 436 - systems analysis and design

pretty fucking boring--the only class i'm looking forward to is the systems analysis and design. i just keep telling myself that after the fall semester, i'll pretty much only have interesting information systems classes left, which i'm looking forward to.

let's see.. what else? advent children dvd came out yesterday.. i am anxiously awaiting my copy from amazon. also, next tuesday is new tool day. christ. 5.5 years waiting for this one.

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slayer. lamb of god. children of bodom. mastodon.

june 27 in atlanta. that .. will be a life altering show. i can't wait. right this second i'm listening to my new favorite album -- slayer - god hates us all (2001) -- track9, bloodline, to be specific.

so anyway. i've been staying either drunk or high or drunk and high every day for a while now .. don't really remember how long .. obviously .. i don't remember much. my face even started to break out while i was throwing up this morning. bags under my eyes, head pounding .. fucking fantastic.

in other news, i have a few hopeful job openings in this area. my resume and cover letter look somewhat decent .. my goal was to be as simple and to-the-point as possible without trying too hard to make it look good.

i got a call from a law office in texas earlier today in regard to a survey i filled out for winternals concerning their lawsuit against best buy's geek squad. as a former employee, i have information about the use of unlicensed software that was being used in our prescient. hopefully i can have a hand in bringing down that stupid "service" .. i'll throw down an official declaration later in the week.

i'm finally starting to figure out cakewalk sonar5. now i can continue playing around with my bass and work my way up to making millions of dollars and touring the world ..... first i just need to stop sucking so bad. i can't even play a scale right now so don't think i'm any good .. i enjoy learning, though.

i don't think there's much else to say right now. i mean, i'm sure there's a lot more i could type but my head still hurts and i'm hungry. ..

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i feel like boiled asshole today. i have no motivation or happiness inside of me right now. i would just like to take a lethal dose of dxm and then die. but i know it's not gonna happen.

only a few weeks of school left. then summer school. what's the point? i hate everything and everyone, including myself. fuck off.

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it's that time of the year again. april 20. 4.20. 420. four-twenty. 001101000011001000110000.

anyway, i'm about to go get really, really, really baked. like. bad. i've rolled a few bones .. one of which is the biggest one i've ever attempted .. cone-shaped and utilizes a filter due to the mixed-in tobacco. hopefully it burns well. going to smoke those .. and then some more. and then some bongs. after that who knows. i imagine fast food will be my dinner. for some reason i want chicken nuggets. shrug.

go smoke, newbs. <3

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holy fucking christ. the new tool album was leaked a day+ ago ... i have it queued up .. vicarious is track one so i'm not hearing anything new right this second but .. soon .. in 30 seconds ..

oh god. yes. time to go, if you want this, contact me. fuck.

!

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new tool.

i have the track playing on my myspace account ..

i can't wait 'til may .. or whenever the full album is leaked.

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the past couple of days are a blur right now. i went out saturday and smoked some stanky danky and drank beers with a friend. after that i went to a bowling alley (didn't play) and visited a few people i knew. once i was done with that i went to another friend's place (by the this time it's around 2am on sunday) and chugged energy drinks and ate a lot of morphine. we watched movies all coked out and smoked like two packs of cigarettes. at around noon i decided it was time to go home .. so i did. the drive was kinda fucked but i made it. so i immediately go to bed and wake up ten hours later. i make something to eat but i'm still tired. so i go back to sleep for another nine or so hours. now i feel really fucking haggard .. it's noon on monday but it feels like it should be night .. i don't know. at least i wasn't being an emotional whore.

the first guy i visited on saturday had some news for me. his family owns ipswitch. ipswitch has operations in augusta and recently opened a position. he's getting me to apply and interview but before that having me meet the senior guys. 9-6 M-F, 4weeks paid vacation, 36k/year .. not bad at all. with that salary i could easily move out and do whatever. the only problem .. it's advanced support for iMail (their email server) .. so i need to refresh myself on commandline parameters, smtp, dns, tcp/ip stacks, packets ... etc. no worries, though. i got this.

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so yea .. she's gone. not completely though. i have to erase anything i thought was true or real or whatever and just substitute it with this brand new verisimilitude. i looked that up. doesn't sound too hard. i bet i fail at it, though.

on the other side of the tracks, i got a message from a friend who i used to work with. told me about a support position that's open downtown with ipswitch. the salary is more than i would even ask for but so are the prerequisites. i have some catching up to do on tcp/ip, dns, smtp (and whatever other acronym related to email i can think of) .. .. but other than that it would be a great thing right now. also, a member of his family started the company ..

i just spent the last few hours .. or six laying on the couch in the porch .. listening to the wind chime and the birds .. people moving in and out of their cars and mowing their lawns. i just can't shake this sinking feeling. something's wrong in my perfect little world ..

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i'm broken. pantera. the only thing i can do right now is crank the volume to painful levels. i'm so confused and sick. of everything. i mean, what do you want? what do i want? are they the same thing? good friends and a bottle of friends is a funny song. but not in the mood. click. shedding skin. better.

in a few hours i should be leaving for a show with a few people. avenged sevenfold and coheed and cambria .. don't even know if i'll be going. i still need to get in touch with some people.

maybe i should switch to cowboys from hell. shattered is a really good track.

i feel nauseous. hey -- "clash with reality" .. track 8.

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i feel like i can't function right now. i wonder in how many ways or how many times i've fucked myself over .. this is becoming increasingly obvious to me though i don't yet have an exact or even rough figure.

leslie, i'm really, really sorry for everything. i've been a dick for a really long time and the past couple days have probably been my worst. i don't expect you to give me another chance -- i just wish you could forgive me ..

i have a very good friend that will be going off to basic training soon and from there who knows. he wants to go out and drink tonight. his timing couldn't be more pefect. i don't believe i've needed this more -- and i don't mean getting shitty, just maybe drinking to forget.

my thoughts are getting tied together. i suppose i should keep myself occupied until tonight.

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hot, isn't it?

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you can't just fuck me in the ass and not call.

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fuck YOU.

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and you and you .. and you. fuck you.

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I guess not really that much has been going on, besides school, work, and the usual shit. 30 seconds to mars was on Friday.. it was a good show but not nearly as good as the Chicago show the week before. Jared said the band was sick, and they played a much shorter set than normal. I guess I can cut them a little break.. 2 out of 3 times I've seen them it has been mindblowing.

The weather is slowly but surely getting nicer. It's gotten near 60 today, but still feels a bit chilly cause I'm right on the lake. I bet that the west part of the city is near 65. I like spring a lot. Mmm..

Rob Zombie is tomorrow. Should be a good show.. my first time seeing him.

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okay. the time has come. what am i going to do? i have until around september to move out or move to texas. this house will be going up for sale at some point in the near future and i'm still unemployed with only a couple faint bleeps on the radar.

my parents purchased nine acres in east texas near my dad's family. they've started getting the land leveled and soon the foundation will be in place.

not only do i need to find a job, i need to find something that pays enough for a place to live, my truck and other misc expenses. my dad has different ideas, though. he wants me to move and even said he'd provide the capital for a small business if i chose to leave. there's no doubt i have a lot to think about. but --

i don't want to leave. i'm going to do whatever i can to be self-sufficient .. however .. if my attempts fail as they have for the past few weeks .. i still have something to fall back on. and her name is athens texas.

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is something to be interpreted. the intentions of the artist are important .. but no more than my views on the track. it's exciting to listen to something that grips you. you look for the title while picking apart each little piece. sometimes the title is perfect and it can take your imagination even higher .. ...

walking the line between personal interpretation and third party reasoning can be difficult and doesn't only relate to music. that's what makes it so difficult. there's so much out in this world to be taken in so many ways. spice of life i suppose.

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i made it 2 whole days. go me. baby steps.... baby steps.

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this little monkey can toss out some nice rhythms into the world. i'm glad to have discovered his cd through a friend i rarely talk to. ironic to a degree.

a lot of time has passed since i stopped collecting wages. and now another wrench is being tossed into the mix, i have until around september to get out or move to texas. roughly half a year. i should .. maybe .. consider trying a little bit harder. find a job. ...

"otto's journey" is probably my favorite track off this disc.

yesterday i drove my mom to 'the masters' since she somehow came across a ticket. instead of making her deal with traffic, parking and walking i volunteered to provide transportation. dropped her off around noonthirty and then went to an eckerd for mints and a soda then parked in the daniel village parking lot (on wrightsboro road, facing daniel field) .. sat there for about three hours. smoked a couple freshly rolled joints, smoked a few cigarettes, read my magazine, watched the planes takeoff and land. it was kinda nice just sitting there with the windows down in the truck .. really nice breeze plus shade next to a small tree.

"rikki" is probably #2 ..

get this .. i started my world of warcraft account back up. i even bought (us dollars) some gold to possibly motivate me with greed. who knows. i want the end result of being level 60 and be able to pvp with a couple friends -- would make a three man team of two druids (one feral, one restoration) and a rogue. on teamspeak. unstoppable.

i tried watching king kong. i can't bring myself to finish it. right now it's still paused on my xbox. sooner or later i'll just cut my losses, turn off the console and never think about this horrid film again. i mean, the special effects are great but the acting is fucking awful and i dislike the camera angles and editing.

"need you tonight" has pretty neat vocals and a nice soft backbeat.

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so i'm taking a short hiatus from toking. i am gonna see if i can make it till midnite on friday without smoking any herb. mostly cause i'm not doing all that great in school right now, and i need to improve my grades and therefore my studying habits. and i think weed prevents me from caring and robs me of my motivation. don't get me wrong, i will always be a pothead at heart and right now there's nothing i would rather do than light up a fatty bowl, but i think i need to see what it feels like to be sober again. it's been nearly 3 years since i have had one sober day. christ.

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