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i've been putting a lot of crap on here and for that i apologize. things have been pretty strange lately. i've probably made as many friends as i've lost but is that justified or even real?
i did something that could be described as .. stupid. a few days ago i met up with this girl i used to work with at like 1am and did everything except actual intercourse (thank god ..) .. i mean, i think this girl is nice but i have no feelings for her at all. i could sit here bitching about "why'd i do it? how could i be so foolish?" etc.etc. but it wouldn't do a damn bit of good.
anyway, i didn't get much sleep last night .. notice the time of this post. i keep yawning and my eyes are watering but when i lay down, nothing happens. i just stare at a wall. so instead i'm playing with my keyboard while listening to mindless self indulgence. i guess i should go play some more grandia3 -- i'm really trying to finish it before oblivion comes out 'cause once i have that in my greedy mits everything else is essentially done.