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this is the body to the update.
nothing new is happening. when i decide to become interesting, i will post more information.
thank you.
i figured i would at least post something. school started on monday. i'm sick of it already. guh. stupid shit i don't care about learning but my degree program says i need to know it. fuck america.
i need to move to a tropical island to grow fields of marijuana and sit in a little wooden shack on the beach drawing designs in the sand with a pointy stick because i took too much acid.
we have just upgraded to movabletype 3.2. this means nothing to anyone but myself and crazyfoo, but we're the only ones that read this so .. everyone celebrate ..
sigh
/me dies
i just got finished paying another round of bills. i spend so much money it's fucking crazy. i'm hoping to decrease my credit debt over the next few months but it's hard when i go out and buy marijuana.
now that my checking account is empty, i should probably go to bed so i can work tomorrow. speaking of which, i need to do my taxes. last year (or the year before last) i waited 'til two hours before the deadline to file. i should probably avoid that this year.
yeah, i'm not dead yet. in fact, i grow stronger. although, i still don't feel anywhere near "normal" yet. this surgery is still taking its toll on me. fuck. my back still hurts and my intestines still hate me.
i really haven't been doing much. i'm still staying primarily at my parents' house. i'm not sure why. i think i'm gonna move back to my apartment at some point this weekend.
i saw hostel today. it was good, and the gory scenes were great, although i think it could have had more.
i'm breathing heavily. my ears are popping. nose is stuffed up. sinuses are flaming. groaning in agony. can't taste anything. neck and shoulders are stiff. but other than that i'm fucking fantastic.
just kidding about the last part, i still hate life. but yea, i feel like shit. went to work like this. it was horrible. i just blew my nose .. like, five seconds ago.
i think i called someone a "cheating bitch/whore" to their face earlier today. well, typed it in a text window thinking i was saying it to one person while in reality the other person was there. if that makes sense .. overall, very funny. tried to catch me off guard like "guess who this is??? love ya!" .. i laughed then blew my nose some more.
fucking nothing on tv right now. my left eye hurts. i wish i could smoke some marijuana right now. i'm afraid my lungs would strike and my heart would be like, what the fuck? where's the oxygen? and my lungs would be marching around with picket signs and giving my brain the finger.
so what .. it's 2006 and i really couldn't care less. i got shitfaced with two of my dear friends and ate too much but there was no other feeling involved. i had a better time hangin' around with those guys than celebrating the holiday. i've noticed in the past year i've not given a damn about any holiday .. birthdays (including my own), christmas, new year, whatever else happened that i can't remember 'cause i don't care enough.
in a few minutes i have to get ready for work. i should probably go ahead and take some excedrin.
i don't think i have too much else to say. ..
...
alright, fuck off.
i really fucking love that man. it all started for me when i heard "brick" (whatever and ever amen) .. then found the rest of the album was just so choice. "one angry dwarf and 200 solemn faces" is fantasticly upbeat and .. jubilant? sure. overall just great.
recently i've been all about 'songs for silverman'. self titled instead of 'ben folds five' as 'whatever and ever amen' was released under. it's god-damned wonderful. really mankes me want to learn piano. my two favorite tracks are undoubtedly "jesusland" and "landed" .. perhaps with emphasis on the latter.
i know this lyric doesn't mean a lot to everyone but holds significant impact to me..
... i was still in love
(chorus)
till i opened my eyes and walked out the door
and the clouds came tumbling down
and it's "bye-bye. goodbye, i tried"
and i twisted it wrong just to make it right
i had to leave myself behind
and i've been flying high all night
So come pick me up
i've landed