what did i do to deserve this?
i guess i don't have much to say right now. i'm pretty depressed.. and with good reason. on sunday night, i went to my parents' house to eat dinner like i normally do. they brought up the topic of how they talked to my uncle, who is a radiation oncologist about my cancer. it is his suggestion that i get a second opinion. since finishing chemotherapy, my tumor has shrank from about 6cm to just over 3cm. he said that even though it responded to the chemo excellently, this is still too big to be considered a 'safe point' to just monitor over the course of time. and i was also informed that it is not uncommon to need surgey to remove what remains of the tumor after chemo is over.
so to make the story short, i'm probably gonna need surgery. when? i don't know yet. i'm hoping i'll be able to finish this semester and get it during winter break. so much for having a fun winter break. :(
also, they're referring me to a doctor that works out of indianapolis.. and i believe he is the same doctor who treated lance armstrong. so clearly, he's one of the best out there in this field, and has tons of experience. nothing but the best for me, right? fuck. i hate my life. just when i was starting to feel like a normal human again.. getting my hair back.. getting my energy back.. i have this bullshit sprung on me. looks like i'm still not out of the dark on this one yet. oh yeah.. in case you missed it when i said it before: fuck.