the empty void in my mind and heart
i really liked soundgard's constant updating. it gave me something to look forward to reading multiple times a day. i don't think i have the ability to constantly write something here. i just suck that much.
i saw the billy nayer show with sleepytime gorilla museum tonight. it was a great show. cory mcabee from bns is a really nice guy.. got to say hi to him after the show. and sleepytime gorilla museum is just.. fucking nuts. christ. nin is friday. hopefully it'll be good.
lately i've just been feeling so empty and depressed. i feel like i have nothing to look forward to in my life. i know i've said this here before, but that's just my general outlook lately. i was thinking of making some life changes.. maybe trying to go out more, smoking less ganja, and trying to do "the right thing" with my life when i see the opportunity. maybe i just need a dxm trip too. it's been too long. usually that helps me "start a new chapter" or "open a fresh page"... if you know what i mean. maybe that won't even help. i feel lonely so often. i also feel like meeting new people is hopeless. nothing is fun anymore. god, i'm a loser.