start of slack
i've stopped the constant updating. i'm glad .. was starting to make no sense. if it made sense at all .. ever .. anyway. i'm enjoying the new nickelback album. the first track pounds me in the ass pretty good. i really like lipstick. on girls.. i mean, like .. well .. dot dot. i dunno. my dxm experiences have left a hole in my brain. i feel depressed as usual only the depression is empty. i think because of this i hate life more than usual. i'm pretty sure crazyfoo would understand what i'm saying.
i have the volume at around 50% right now. walls are vibrating. rock and alt.rock is what i am. bass guitars and drums are the components of my lifeblood.
i think the quality of audio hardware really makes a difference on how people view music. the track i'm listening to now (04-animals) wouldn't be that great if i had a lesser system. my audigy2 and logitechs are thumping and making me not hate life (sidenote: this only lasts for the length of the track .. i still hate life and understand that while i'm listening)
thirty minutes until i start getting ready for work again. motherfuck. i'm going to ask for a fulltime position. why? i like the pain. but fulltime at bestbuy is 32 hours. right now i'm working around 28-30. so for an extra couple hours i get benefits. maybe then i can go see a doctor about some death.
my head is starting to hurt from the noise. that may give you an idea of how loud it is in here right now. i'll be deaf shortly. but who cares? i know you don't. i don't. so whatever. it'll be something different. and this way when i pull the trigger i won't hear it and hopefully it'll be quick enough where i won't feel it either.
i asked crazyfoo earlier how to make things better .. his reply was a nice ass and a big set of tits. i agreed .. but got (even more) depressed at the same time. we're not /that/ materialistic so don't take it the wrong way. i think we both want someone to share life with .. like the missing piece of our puzzle. thing is, he's a self-hating jew and i'm just self-hating.
red lipstick .. by the way. and black eyeliner. lots of it.