i have a serious problem...
i think that because i hate myself and my life so much that seeing other people being happy disgusts me. that's so wrong. how will i ever meet anyone or be successful with this attitude? fuck. i wake up every day wishing that i wouldn't have woken up at all.
i saw an awesome show tonight though, my buddy kyle playing guitar and his co performer, brittney mitchell. it was a good time.
my brain hurts and my heart aches like it is dying.