MonkeyPhish

half life was probably the best first person game i ever played. the single player gameplay, story, graphics .. everything was rock solid. multiplayer was just as wonderful adding years to the lifespan. i think one reason people (including myself) latched on it so easily was the main character .. gordon freeman. he wasn't a hero. he wasn't ex-swat or cia or special forces but he saves the fucking day despite all odds .. that kicks ass to me.

alan wake is a normal guy. and the name of a pretty sweet looking nexgen game. i first saw this while checking out g4tv earlier today. could this possibly be the next half life? it's going to be released on pc and nexgen consoles but since i'll be purchasing a xbox360, i'll most likely console it up.

speaking of buying the next xbox, that fucking thing is going to be expensive. and i don't care that microsoft won't be making any initial profit by selling it at that price .. it's still fucking high at $400. problem: for work it would make my life easier to have a flash drive around my neck with tools for pc repair. the product i want costs around $125. since i'm poor and can't afford shoes for my children, this little toy would have to go on my credit card and sit there for a while. same goes for the xbox. i'm /going/ to buy the xbox. i have to. but .. wait .. isn't work supposed to take precedence? ..

while sitting here typing i saw a review for the gameboy micro. i want it. i bought a ds. don't play it. bought a psp. don't play it. if i buy a micro will i play it? no. does that mean anything? no. i'm probably going to buy it 'cause it's small and looks cool. see how conflicted i am? this is why my five boys and four girls are starving and barefoot.